Convicting Resolutions...

Yesterday, when I woke up, I just knew it would be one of "those days." Girls, specifically those about my age or older, you know what I am talking about. Just one of those days when getting out of bed really only makes things worse. Why?! Well, for some reason, I ran across a verse days prior in Proverbs 18, and when I woke up yesterday, that verse was screaming loud in my ear and it just put me in a bad mood! Ha. Verse 22 states, "He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord." Now, I know you ask, "Why, Sarah, did this verse make you mad?" Well, daggum, some days I just wake up and think to myself "I WANT TO BE FOUND!" But, rather than just go back to bed, I continued with my day. And praise the LORD!!

Later that afternoon, I started a new book that I actually got for my birthday, but have not yet had time to read, The Unwavering Resolve of Jonathan Edwards by Dr Steven Lawson. Now, Jonathan Edwards has always been one of my favorite men of the faith. And I have done a few studies on him, but this book, I must say, is exceptional!! But, the LORD used my time in this book yesterday to put quite the conviction on my heart regarding the aforementioned complaint! While reading some history on the life of Edwards, when telling of his death, just months following the death of his son-in-law, his wife, Sarah, wrote a letter to their daughter, who had now lost her father and husband. Sarah's words are compelling and challenging. For one, what does a mother say to comfort her daughter in the the loss of the 2 most important men in her life, all the while Sarah is grieving the loss of her husband. These are her words...

"My very dear child, What shall I say? A holy and good God has covered us with a dark cloud. O that we may kiss the rod, and lay out hands upon our mouths! The Lord has done it. He has made me to adore His goodness, that we had him so long. But my God lives; and He has my heart. O what a legacy my husband, and your father, has left us! We are all given to God; and there I am, and love to be."

Umm, HELLO!! Did you catch that. In the midst of great grief, Sarah Edwards proclaims that her heart belongs to the LORD!! Wow! What a thought. There are days that I wonder what the prolonging may be. Then, there are moments like these, when I sit on my couch and read such truth, that I remind myself how stupid I sound! Do I want to be found? Well, sure. But too often I forget that I have already been sought out! The LORD has my heart, and should He see fit to share it with someone else, well in His timing it will be perfect. I mean, I didn't even have an opportunity to discover Edwards' resolutions before the LORD used his dear wife to convict my heart. Pray for contentment. God is, in fact, great.....